Ok, so today is my last day at my job and everyone is throwing me a send-off. It's a combination of my worst nightmares - lots of food, lots of people, people watching me, people making speeches about me and me having to say something to everyone at the end. I'm scared, anxious and nervous already (and it's 6 hours away!). WTF am I going to do to cope?!?!
I'm SO scared to leave my job and start a new one. I crave stability more than anything and I'm going to be out of my comfort zone. As if just living isn't me being out of my comfort zone...
I feel like shit about everything; I feel like my life is completely out of control and I don't know what I can do to get back on track...or even if that's even possible anymore. I'm thinking about going back on anti-depressants.
So essentially, I won't have access to a computer for a while. My new job is for the government and I won't be willing to risk accessing this site at work, so I'll have to buy a laptop. Guess that means I won't be on here for a while. Given that, I just want to thank you all who have helped and supported me whilst I've been here and to thank those that have let me help them. I'm going to miss you :(
Bye for now.